<p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">4</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">月</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">8</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">号,我们完成了第六次化疗,也就是说,规范的治疗已经结束。在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">5</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">月</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">8</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">号,我联系好了上海胸科医院的中医金长娟。妈妈是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">2</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">月</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">12</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">日做过</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">CT</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">的。医生叮嘱三个月要复查。既然打算去上海看,我觉得复查一下,也是对医生的一个交代。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">12</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">号,我们单位要开会,我让哥哥陪母亲去做</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">CT</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">,哥哥本来要等着拿片子,我跟他挤挤眼睛,说我会去拿的。我是怕万一有什么问题,省得妈妈担心,但是,我也仅仅是觉得只是万一而已。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">下午,送帆帆去兴趣班。我匆匆忙忙去医院。在取片室,我报上妈妈的名字,拿出片子。诊断上蓝色圆珠笔清楚的写着:原部位</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">2</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">厘米阴影,边缘毛糙,肺</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">Ca</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">复发考虑。我拿片子的手在发抖:会不会看错?我拿着</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">2</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">月份的片子往做</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">CT</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">的医生办公室跑。医生态度很好,又重新看了一遍片子,问:“你妈妈是什么类型的?”我答:“小细胞。”他遗憾地摇摇头:“这种类型就是这样的特性,治疗效果好,复发复发也快!我在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">2</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">月份的片子里什么都找不到了,你看,今天的片子,那个部位又有东西出来,而且还有胸水!”我再也抑止不住泪水,抽抽咽咽走出来,坐在门口的椅子上哭,给陈鉴打电话——这个以前只有一面之交现在几乎成为我的家庭医生的同学。电话里,我断断续续说,他马上说:“你过来,我在医院!”跑到他的科室,他是消化道医生,下午比较空,一个病人都没有。他拿出片子看,说:“你不要哭,这一天迟早要来的,你给你哥哥打个电话吧,不要一个人扛着。”我问:“这样,还有多少日子?”同学很直接:“三个月到六个月。”有病人到他那里看病了,我不能再呆着,我拿着片子走出去,他在后面安慰我什么话,我一点都没听清,连再见都没说一声。坐在车里,我号啕大哭,给哥哥打电话。哥哥说:“你给肿瘤科的医生看了吗?”是啊,我真是急糊涂了,给我看片子的两个医生都不是最专业的,我应该让给我妈妈做治疗的医生去看看。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">又拿起片子跑进医院,在住院部找到徐医生。他拿找片子看,问我们什么时候结束化疗的?离放疗有多少时间了?说:“好像复发是快了点,有咳嗽吗?有热度吗?”我说都没有。他摇摇头说:如果有这些症状,可以考虑是放射性肺炎,但是这些症状都没有,复发的可能性就很大,而且有胸水,这个才是最麻烦的。如果胸水多起来,人呼吸不过来,歇歇落很快的。”“胸水多怎么办?”我问。“抽掉,人生活质量会很低。”我知道,徐医生的所谓生活质量低的话的意思是我妈妈后面的日子会很痛苦。他在叹气,他也难过,但是没有办法。我礼貌地告别,毕竟别人没有义务为你伤心。我一边走,徐医生的两句话:“人歇歇落会很快”“生活质量会很低”一直在我耳边放大。我已经接受妈妈迟早要离开我的现实,但是,为什么,这一天,会来得这里急?而且,要让妈妈这么痛苦?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我给老公打电话,好不容易止住的眼泪又忍不住掉下来。老公说,我马上回来。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我到家转了下,妈妈也在盼</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">CT</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">结果。开门,谎话自然而然就流出嘴巴:“片子没有上次的清楚,说放疗后肺部纤维有点增粗,不过没关系,医生我都问过了,星期一我们要去上海,如果不放心,我们让上海的专家再去看看</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><font face="Times New Roman">!”</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我说的很轻松,妈妈也只能相信我的话,但是我知道,她肯定也有点担心的。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我跟帆帆说,我想去趟超市,其实我不知道我想买些什么,只是我不敢在家里呆着,怕妈妈问这问那,怕我不争气的眼泪泄密。在超市转,看到米仁,看到红枣,还是下意识地放进购物车里。我真地不甘心。在治疗地同时,我们这么当心地饮食,小心翼翼地调节。我们才刚刚结束正规治疗一个月,就复发,这个病,真地这么可怕?真地是人抗不过命?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 18pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">老公回来了,说,刚才我在谈判,一点心思都没了,还是赶紧回来。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">晚上,老公说,这次上海我开车去,然后调整看病思路,主要看西医,能约到廖美琳最好,然后,中医也照看。</span></p>
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